(COMMISSIONS OPEN! Check at the bottom of this post for more info)Hi everybody.
It's been nearly 3 years since I last updated this journal... I know it's a very long time, many things happened, many things have changed, dA has changed, and I don't know if someone will actually read this post.
I remember when I just opened this account, 9 years ago, the struggling at the begining, trying to emerge and get people following me. My dreams, my determination, some small success and fame, then the slow fading away of all that.
What happened? Where have I been?
After I graduated from my fashion academy in Milan I moved to Tokyo in January 2016. I went to study the language and to try to find a job there, so that I could settle there for good. That was my biggest dream, Tokyo was really -and still is...- the place I belong to.
I lived there for 2 years. I learned Japanese, made some friends, and even found a fashion designer job in a good company. I was very near to achieve everything I always wanted and get the fruits from all my sacrifices and efforts. But the immigration office denied my working visa, so I had to leave, and in one day I lost everything. I had to say goodbye to my few friends and to everything I loved, the only place in this world where for the first time I felt myself, I felt at home, I felt safe and complete.
In March 2018 I had a complete breakdown, a darkness from which I still haven't got out of yet. I had to improvise a new plan, though it wasn't really a good plan but just a way to keep surviving.
So I moved to London last October: it was just the easiest choice because I didn't need any visa and I could ship all my things I had in Japan to a friend. Going back to Italy would have just made me feel even worse.
But if something can go even worse, it will: at Narita airport I lost my macbook with ALL of my works inside. No back up. Nothing. All my projects, designs, drawings, photos, resources, storyboards, everything lost for good.
It couldn't happen in a moment worse than that... I got into deep depression. And I had to deal with it completely alone, without any help because I couldn't afford it. It's been the worst year of my whole life. If you're an artist you'll understand, to me every single work is like a child, and even though I uploaded a lot of designs here and on my website, losing the psd files with the levels, the drawings without the backgrounds, in high quality resolution, that was really bad.
Then a couple months ago thank god I got my computer back, with everything still inside. So it's kind of ok now, but too many bad things happened and all of them really changed me. I'm not the same person I was 9 years ago, full of energy, feeling like I could conquer the world, seeing my fashion brand in the future, my fashion shows, my manga. Now I don't see anything anymore. I'm alone, in a city I don't like, and I'm having big problems finding even a simple part time job. Not even as a designer, I'm trying as sales assistant at some shops, and nobody wants to hire me. If you don't work in London you starve, everything is super expensive here, and I can't make any new friends. I'm trapped here and I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even feel like keep drawing anymore, it seems like a total waste of time to me... No matter how hard I try, none of my dreams will ever come true.
I really need to find a way to pay my bills, so that's why I'm open for commissions now!I need your support and the only thing I can give in exchange is what I can do with my few skills.
Fashion designs, manga illustrations, ocs, logos, pixel arts, anything you need. Only thing, I'm not good with backgrounds and I don't do NSFW.
Prices usually start from 35€, it depends by your requests.
I also have some designs on Redbubble where you can buy some cute stuff:
www.redbubble.com/people/victo…Send me a note or an email at victor@victorfaretina.com with all the details! ^_^